Hello again
it's been a while since I last blogged.
So here's the update.
I now have 31/2 months sober.
I am excited about a lot of positive news in my life.
I was promoted at work to full time with benefits.
I now work around 60 hours a week
which is good to keep me occupied
also, JD and I were approved for a townhouse in north Denton
we hope to move in on the 11th of October.
I am so excited to have a place finally under my name.
A lot has been going right lately and I feel more positive now.
There has been a sinking depression though.
Although I am dealing with it pretty well.
I met a girl named Jessica at work a month ago.
her and I quickly became good friends and hung out a lot
it was good to have such a close friend again
but a few days ago, she up and left to go to Austin with her abusive boyfriend
she is planning on marriage
She told me she was comming back
but told JD that she is not and told him to not tell me.
he did and I cried.
My friend, Sarah in the program at the Women's house
was originally my best friend and we were going to live together.
but she wanted to stay at the House.
She left today to live in Kurville
I am beginning to lose my friends again
I can't get ahold of Melissa or Stephanie
The only one who is staying is my roommate.
I hope to create new friends soon and know I have the ability
but, it becomes harder when they all decide to leave me
I always fear abandonement.
I continually get scolded in the office about rent and why I'm leaving here
but, I told them this morning I had no time to deal with that
I know it's time to move on from here and I have very little fear of relapse
I work my program of recovery as best I can
I love my job and even helped a new woman get a job there
She loves it and is a hard worker.
It felt good to help someone out.
her sister and her are both hairdressers and they are going to give me a free haircut for helping her get a job.
people in the program are so good to me when I help them, well mostly the women, but I have hope for a good future.
If I can, Mom and Dad will be paid off soon enough.
My resentments will be dealt with and I will be continually helping others.
hoping to write and post more often.
6 comments:
YEEHAW! indeed!! Frank, I am so proud of you for monumental progress and your abilities to help others in a time when you are helping yourself. The friend thing is hard...and some people are easily swayed, manipulated... but it sounds like you have a good situation, and a fresh new start! Praise God From Whom All Blessings Flow! Love you, Brother.
you were always good at making people feel good about themselves, frank. congrats on the sobriety. love you,
steph krall (formerly nasworthy)
I'm not really into Texas slang...but, yeah...
YEEHAW on the sobriety and the positive things going on!
Congratulations, Frank! And on getting your own place, too. Hope the friend thing turns around soon. I don't know what your work hours are or if you're still into the craft, but Lindsay et al are still meeting each week, now they meet at Panera.
Congratulations from me too. We love you, Frank, and are praying for you.
I echo the congradulations! I'm glad circumstances are going so well for you. Dwell on those things that are good to remind you of how well you're doing and how far you've come.
It's hard to be without best friends. They are really important. Remember that "there is one who sticks closer than a brother" (Proverbs 18:24), and "he will never leave you nor forsake you." (Deuteronomy 31:6)
You are an amazing person, Frank!
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