today was awkward
a lot of things were sour
first, I had to awaken around 7am
to go to work on time
luckily Erick gave me a lift
I worked hard as usual
but for some reason I was irritable
nothing seemed to cause it
it just was there today
I was annoyed by all my customers
when they interrupted my little projects
and I felt sluggish too
I am scheduled to work 14 hours next week
I thought they liked me at work
well I talked them into 3 more hours woopee!
I am too negative I need to watch the secret again
thanks Caroline, I'll return it soon
i was prepared to ride the bus after work
to get to the square station
because it doesn't run to the house after 5:15
but Melissa showed up and picked me up
we had fun laughing as usual
but she was sent out by a roommate of mine
a 33 year old child
who claimed she makes him feel like crap all the time
she has done nothing but befriended him
buying him food and drinks
and taking him places
He turned out of the blue telling me she can't come to the house or he'll talk to the manager
I said okay grinding my teeth
but I baked an omelet and oatmeal squares for us and told Melissa to stay while we eat
I talked to my sponsor, scared this guy might turn on me or Melissa in a violent way
My sponsor said to give it a day
because this guy tends to have weird reactions and delusions
bi-polar unmanageability
I don't feel safe right now
I have no preparation for his actions
that scares me a bit
on the other hand another guy in the house took me and JD to the movie tavern
where one of our housemates works and got us in free
we watched the simpson's movie and he bought me fries and a drink
which was really cool of him
Melissa is dumbfounded and has no clue what happened with the psycho
She was told by him that she had an addict mind and that she needed help
Melissa has shown to be in control of mind altering substances
she doesn't ever bring anyone at the house into using anything
she never is inebriated while she is here
with sufficient reason she can stop and has
she is not an addict
she is sporadic and impulsive sometimes
but she doesn't make people feel like crap
she makes people laugh
I think if this guy threatens me at all in anyway
I'm calling the cops
Thats my solution if someone is unpredictable
I am going to try and get him the mental health somewhere else where he is not hurting others
this guy use to talk whith me and be my friend
what happened to his mind?
I care about him in a nonshoulant way
but I have to be able to protect myself in a sufficient way though
I feel he would better be suited in a mental hospital in my opinion
and as for Melissa, she feels like this is her fault and she doesn;t deserve that
so I have to do something by tomorrow to take care of this catastrophe
love you all!

well July is now over
I love my job at Hobby Lobby very much
It sure doesn't give me the hours I need for rent
but, I have been given extra hours so far
and I enjoy the company of the ladies and guys I work with
I have an interview with El Chico tomorrow afternoon
That might help the money situation out
I am preceeding with that interview to supplement my income
not to change occupations

Lately, I have been suffering many partial seizures
I was put on medicine for seizures about two weeks ago
and it seems to help a lot
However I decided another route to raising my seizure threshhold
It is an old diet which proves very successful for seizure control
Its called the ketogenic diet
Basically, it consists of 80% fat
10% carbohydrates and 10% protein
It sounds limiting, but is very healt6hy
i have to weigh out my food portions as well
because it depends on decresed calories as well
about 1250 calories a day
the first 24 hours of the diet are strict on no food consumption
in order to put the body into ketosis
or a state of burning fat over glucose
I have been following this diet rigorously so far
I hope to not necissarily lose weight but to control seizure symptoms
I love you all very much and hope to see some of you soon.